This entry is for those who are coming in regard to the note in the chapter just I uploaded on FF.net. 

Below I will link to the parkour videos I mentioned that inspired the action in the chapter. I've put them in order of what I suggest you watch, based on what is shown in the video. At least watch the first two, as they complement each other I feel, and if you are like me and want to watch more, I've listed a third as well. Enjoy!

Two Brothers: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pu-12IOBRiI

Dvinsk Clan Parkour: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZ3tsC3moB4

And for further interest....

Adrenaline Parkour: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ICKm9D-Vd8

So yes, this is the type of movement that I am attempting to describe our hero, Link, performing! Artistic liberty, yes, as I know he doesn't move that way in the games. But I'm allowed! :-P See you next chapter!

Thanks,
~ The Wolfess

By now, if you live in the United States you have heard about Virginia Tech. It’s now the biggest school shooting in US history. I grew up in Virginia, although I moved to a different state when I was thirteen. My step-mother called me yesterday asking if I was all right. Having never known anyone but me who goes to college, she was worried about me even though I don’t go to Virginia Tech or to any school near there. I’m at a small redneck school on the other side of the country in fact.

I reassured her that I was fine and that in a town as small as the one my college is in, something like that wouldn’t happen. Boy was I wrong.

I wake up this morning to my cell phone ringing. Having gone to bed late and only gotten 3 hours of sleep, I stumbled over to it and answered. It was 6am. I work on campus and was supposed to be in at 8am, but it was my boss on the line.

“The campus is under complete lock-down!” she said, her voice panicked.
My eyes widened and I stuttered out “Why? What’s going on?”
The school received a shooting threat was all we knew at the time. They caught the guy an hour later and re-opened campus at 10am, although all classes were canceled. I later found out the whole story, bit by bit.

A guy I knew, a guy who lives in the same dorm building as me, the guy I get my coffee from in the mornings when he’s working, a guy who one of my friends gives rides to home from work because he doesn’t have a car…a guy I talked to, who always seemed friendly…planned to shoot us all. When they caught him he had ammo on him, though no gun yet.

Everyone is safe and no one got hurt. They found him in time. There are reporters everywhere, swarming campus and the dorms. When I got into work at 10 they immediately informed us of procedures to deal with students and parents who are distraught, and how to deal with the press. “The Office of Student Life has no comment, but I can refer you to the guy who you can talk to, the press agent of our campus…” We had a girl call in to cancel her appointment because she was afraid to leave her dorm room (because of the reporters.)

It’s crazy, and I’m pretty…shaken, I guess. What do you think when something like this happens, and you knew the guy? He doesn’t fit the “school shooter profile” at all. A friendly, sociable guy. It’s so weird. On top of that, the first girl who got shot at Virginia Tech (in the dorms) was my sister-in-law’s childhood best friend.

So…weird day. Crazy day. I’m really sorta ready for the semester to be over now so I can leave and go back home, you know? Ah well.

God bless,
The Wolfess

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So...if anyone knows HTML and wants to help me make a livejournal layout out of this journal header? Yeah, that would be great. I haven't made anything but the header yet, but I want to make a background as well with the same general theme. Until then, since I couldn't use it where I planned to (devart...turns out to need a paid account to put images in your journal) I'm going to put it here. When I think to. When it's a journal entry and not an update on my art or fanfics or stuff like that. This is just a journal...so I'm using it...it's pretty!

Anyway, on to what I'm writing this about. No one has advertised it on thier Zelda websites yet and it shocks me! ZREO -Zelda ReOrchestrated- is shut down for good! Why? Fire GS, the man who makes the sound files, has been accused of stealing the works of other Zelda fans and calling them his own. According to FireGS he merely used the files as guides when the actual soundtracks weren't available, which makes sense. Who is telling the truth? I don't know. Why don't you take a look and decide for yourself:

The Official ZREO website, where FireGS has posted his side of the argument: 
http://www.zreomusic.com/

The HTLOZ forum where the various sides of the argument are activly discussing the issue: 
http://www.htloz.net/forums/showthread.php?t=4896

The main two sides seem to be FireGS and Leniator, with other people siding with either one or the other as they want. My opinion? I'm shocked and I think it's sad. I'm chosing not to take a side simply because I don't know either of them personally and don't know the truth. I don't have the best opinion of Leniator himself after seeing his comments on forums in the past, but he very well could be telling the truth. I do agree that if FireGS used them as guides, assuming his statement is true, he should have listed them as rescources. Either way his credibility is seriously hurt. 

I think that this is a sad day for the Zelda Community. Weather or not he ripped some of his music, most of it he made himself and it was fantastic. There will be no Hyrule Open Symphony or Feildscapes or Battlescapes. No more reorchestrations of A Link to the Past or Twilight Princess. There was a lot of untapped material that could have kept the ZREO community as a whole going for years to come, but no more. I will also be sad to see the ZREO art gone. I enjoyed the people who were in the ZREO forum community as well, and it saddens me to see that's gone as well. 

R.I.P. Z.R.E.O. 
October 2004-April 2007

Pirated or not, mistakes or not, there's a lot of talent that really was there and now it's gone. The Zelda Community is a little sadder today without it. 

God bless,
The Wolfess

Hello,
I haven't written in this for so long, and I don't really use this as an actual journal these days. I don't do journaling in the sense of "i'm going to sit here and complain about my life" like I used to. I've been contemplating tonight and yeah, I do feel a bit lonely. Feelings lie, though, and God knows I'm feeling this way. There's a reason for it, and it'll pass.

I was praying a little bit ago about how I feel lonely and, deep down, still hate being alone just like I used to. God pointed something out to me that hadn't crossed my mind before. This is a season where God has asked me to love him...just to be with him and enjoy him, follow him, develop our relationship in a way that needs to be just me and him. No one else. One day I'll have a career, a family, a husband, and the many things I will be doing for the church and for him. I'll never be alone then.

The things I can do now, like sit alone on my floor with worship music on and just be with him and pray for hours...or going on our long walks together, God revealing things to me and speaking to me as I enjoy his presence and the world he's created. My artistic things that I spend three to five hours at a time working on at midnight. I wont be able to do any of that then. I'll be running around, and it'll be perfect and wonderful and I'll never feel lonely and all of that. But I wont have the wealth of time that I have now, time that I spend with Jesus, just enjoying his love, his teaching, his presence, everything. I can't imagine not having time for that now, and what that'll be like day after day.

Thinking about this makes me grateful that I have so much alone time! I may feel really lonely sometimes, but that's just because I miss hugging and being hugged. Miss laughing and the feeling of conversing with friends I value and adore. Miss deep conversation about God. My primary love language (the top way that I express love) is spending quality time with people, so that's important to me and I need that time I spend with people, really. So that's why I get sad when I'm not having a lot of it.

The only problem that there is with the lonliness that comes from not having those meaningful interactions with people for a long time (despite the shallow/brief 'hi how are you' interactions that happen every day) is that I have a tendancy to get a little jealous over my close friends when I don't feel like I'm getting enough time with them. I struggle with that a lot, every day, and every day I pray that God will find a time and a place to change that in me. I know it'll happen one day. Until then, I'll rely on him when I'm feeling lonely and/or jealous. He helps me with it every time!

God bless,
Jennie (The Wolfess)

This is amazing! People actually MOVE like this?? It's like turning one's body into a painting. Amazing!

NOTE: this was originally posted on the "zelda_icons" and "zelda_lovers" comminites. :)

So, thanks to some awesome adivice from some people here on Zelda_Icons I was able to download GIMP and make my first batch of icons ever. So, behind the cut there are my first 15 icons, from various zelda games not just Twilight Princess. And yes, there are big spoilers in some of the Twilight Princess Icons, so tred with caution if you haven't beaten the game yet. Let me know what you think!

Preview:


( Was it all an illusion? )

I really wish that I could draw -really draw! Like some of my favorite artists, ShaddieWolf, Balaa, Goldenwolf, and SnowWolfMystic. You see, I have this charicter in my head. I love wolves, they're amazing to me in every way and of all God's creatures they're my favorite. They're the ones I feel I am most akin to.

I have this charicter in my head...I've given her my cherokee name, given to me by my father when I was eight: Stoneflower, which is Nvya Atsilvsgi in cherokee. I know how she looks, what breed she is, her mannerisms, everything. Often throughout the day, when I feel tired or some other emotion, I picture exactly how she would react in my mind. Everything I usually think the sentance "If I were a wolf, I would..."

I commisioned a picture of her once. I was engaged after dating this person for two years, and it was a christmas/anniversary present picturing both of us. Really romantic on my part, and a breathtaking peice done by ShaddieWolf. (there is a link to it on my devart account. it's amazing!) Unfortunatly, my fiance ran off and got pregant on me, then dumped me when I said yes I would help her raise the child. A lot has changed since then, A LOT, and all for the better!

But I still have this charicter in my head. More, so, I have two pictures in particular I wish so badly that I could draw. One is a charicter picture of Stoneflower herself, in a werewolf form. She is sitting somewhere in the middle of a forest with firefies around, a bound book of parchment, that wonderful yellowish-brown paper, in her lap or something like that, a pen mid-sentance on the page with her eyes looking off into the distance...wooden cross around her neck peeking out from under her fur, hawk feathers braided into the hair of her scruff. Her traidmark black-tipped ears with the single gold hoop earing in each. Yeah...

Beyond that, there's a different picture, one that has been burning in my mind alongside a whole metaphorical story that explains my life and testimony. I've played it out so many times in my mind, changed angles, changed poses, changed expressions...not sure how to get it just right. It is an illustration of my testimony...Stoneflower is in normal form, just a regular red wolf. She is either muzzled, the muzzle is being taken off, or it's on the ground near her to show she was previously muzzled. Winter. Perhaps a cage nearby that she was just let out of. And near her, always touching her somehow, tenderly and with love, is Jesus. The one who took the muzzle off, unlocked the cage. In every version I come up with their eyes are always locked, Stoneflower's usually scared and his compassionate. The most recent version of this I see him embracing her.

Man...gets me every time I think of it. So much implied in a single picture. Past, present, future. You can see that he will take her in and take care of her, love her. She will become devoted, like White Fang if I'm thinking of the right book.

Oh, how I wish I could draw like them...if only I had the time to practice.

-Stoneflower aka Jennie aka The Wolfess

It’s been a long time since I’ve sat down and wrote my thoughts out. Two things tend to happen when I do this: 1. I develop them properly and feel satisfied getting them out in text and 2. I get myself into big trouble when, the next day, it sounds completely horrible and wrong and offends someone. Yeah. Of course, I haven’t done this in so long that I wonder if that will happen this time. Funny how someone can have a “night after” type feeling after something like this. Yeah, some people I love have gotten pretty pissed at me because I wrote out my thoughts for all to see…but those things are settled now.

There are so many things on my mind these days I don’t know where to begin. It’s like sitting down to organize your great grandmother’s house. Not impossible, but darn close. The thing is I love my life. In the last year and a half, since I was saved, it has just been getting better and better. One thing after another God has taken out of me, replacing it with the right things…and man, I can’t tell you how often I find myself wanting to gush over these new things as much as I did the old ones. It’s quite an intense feeling, because I’m just so grateful! Yet, I don’t, and it’s better that way. There is a fine line between gratitude and obsession. A lesson I learned the hard way.

You know, I’m not sure I have the attention span to do these anymore. I get two paragraphs in and do other stuff for an hour…(yes it’s been an hour between the previous two paragraphs and this one.) Anyway, I was going to rant about how much I love people and how much I love God and all of that, finally culminating in the following activity that I saw a friend do on her myspace blog. So I’ll just skip to that part.


1. List some things you want to say to 15 different people but you know you probably never will.
2. Don't say who they are.
3. Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.
4. In most cases, never discuss it again.


Actually, I’m kind of tired…So I’ll post this, the wonderful quality that it is, and go to bed.

~The Wolfess aka Jennie

Man…the point of this was…? Ah well.